It is odd to go most of your life thinking that you are smart and reasonable; and then have that severely doubted when some guy repeatedly treats you poorly.
You know that you are in dire need if you start to question your own judgment because of the behaviors or actions of someone else.
So many of the stories that I heard while I was in the shelter systems were even worse than my own. sadly so many of those women will not get out of their situations. And a certain percentage of them will even die trapped in the mire.
The worse story ever related to me was this very gentle, sweet women who had become very calloused and stern just to stay alive. She was beautiful inside and out but was already very mangled.
The last time I saw her she was getting ready to go to a funeral several hours away of two of her family members. Her abuser had killed them just in order to get her to come out of hiding so that he could have access to hurt her. After several hours of talking with the people at the shelter she was persuaded not to come out of hiding; and she had to miss the funeral of her brother and nephew. I remember the totally resigned, helpless look she had on her face as she sat there smoking a cigarette trying to regain what was left of her composure. And most of the stories are just as moving, and upsetting.
Let me know what is on your mind,
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