In time, there will come a time when you can rebuild your life.
You can be different. You can take responsibility for your life, and build something strong, healthy and loving.
It is not just enough to get away from an abuser, you must also to the work of becoming healthy, so that you don't keep attracting men with unhealthy habits. If you work at making yourself healthy, unhealthy men will walk away from you.
What does it take to be healthy?
It takes time, honest assessment, forgiveness and a willingness to love yourself. If you love yourself, you won't put up with others abusing, disrespecting or hurting you.
You do not need to be with someone so badly that you sell yourself and your self-esteem down the river, by being with an unhealthy partner.