Imagine

Imagine actually believing that you don't deserve to be happy. Being so downtrodden that every decision is put through the filter of:
"What does it matter, I don't deserve to be happy, anyway?"

After a while, careless decisions become easier and easier to make. Excuses for not achieving, not overcoming become easier and easier to find. Until nothing seems to matter.

Spiritual Warfare is real, and it takes place in the soul...the soul consists of the mind, emotions and the will. Why does it happen there? Because that part of our nature is not made new when we become born again. Our spirits become new, not our souls. And so begins the battle, the strife, between soul and spirit.

The soul remembers the soul meditates on thoughts, emotions, and the past. The soul worries.

The balance is so filling our lives with the Word of God, the things of God, the actual presence of God, that our spirits bring our souls into alignment with Godly character.

One of the parables that Jesus spoke of was becoming "good ground". In order to become good ground, we have to allow the thorns and weeds of this life to be dug up and routed out. Thoughts, emotions and the past, especially negative ones, can be thought of as the thorns and weeds that need to be dug up, in order to make us "good ground".

So the message that I got, and operated under for most of my life "that I don't deserve to be happy" was a weed. A negative impact on the way I thought of myself, my choices and my corner of the world.

God doesn't automatically, nor instantly, just make us good ground. In fact, it is left up to us to do that kind of work. One of the Parables has Jesus basically telling us that it up to us to make ourselves "good ground". We must pull up the "weeds" in our lives, in order to become that which is fertile = to become good ground. 

Think about. Seek help if you need it. Find someone to talk to openly. 

Much love, 

Mickey Len (Michelle)